Loner 4 Ever

a collection of failed attemps at wooing his/her heart

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Final Update

Hey, so its been a long time. Loner4ever.com has not been updated in years and will no longer ever be updated. This site will act as archive of all the stories that were part of the project. I’ve made a book, given three performance and now recorded an audio version of the book. It’s been […]


recent one time lover having a bday party, bring sum girls to cool down the pace, show up, being chatty with ppls, all black er’thing, looking like a hipster funeral party’s ebbing out, brit crew chillin in the kitchen, cute redhead asks bout harry potter, never read potter, ask if shes read lord of the […]


swiped to the right, asks me out for a drink but s’gotta to work really early next day, oblige. meet up, have drinks, run into german volleyball friends, hang. starts getting touchy feely, thinking “oh, okay” ppl leave, asks if i like chocolate, asks if i like massages try not to roll my eyes, say […]


halloween night, dressed up as a gurl wit a big booty, fully loaded party favours, hosting friends for the predrink, finish one bottle of jameson, take some e, head off to party. arrive at party, start rollin, chat up gurl, dressed as buffy, cute n nice, fashion designer dream, roll off. head outside, take a […]


met boy x-mas 2012, had lots in common. things were too great, thought found my other half… walk in on him injecting heroin into his feet. couldn’t hold a job and was always broke. but stood by his side. withdrawals, depression and anger brought us both down. many lies of false sobriety later, admits he […]


waiting for bus and cute girl approaches, says  bus aint coming to this stop, asks where i’m going, say “that way”. going in same direction.  says she lives on street x. live around the corner. take subway. kind of talk. kind of exchanging glances.  kinda awkward. both get off subway and decide to walk home […]


friend of #62. met on a beach trip, flirt a bit, shes german (german dream is re-awakened), only speak in german cuz thats my thing with germans. about to be dropped off, think about asking for the #, hesitate and figure its better to chillback. dont see each other til november, do the fb add, […]


bday party 4 me.  arrive late, pretty jumping.  more ppl arrive, hunk (drunk + high), pea-cocking with flower shirt, chatty, friend of friend comes up to me.  asks me if im the birthday boy, smile, wink and nod. promise hosts that i would stay over to clean up. always keep my word. girl comes back […]


met girl at party, 5am rolls around, decide its time to go home, ask for her #, tells me she has no phone, figure its over, tease her about it, gives me her email. leave. 3 days later, figure what the hell, email her. get response the same day, lengthy email. explains that she has […]


met girl a nu years, quite cute, she seems nice.  do the obligatory fb add, chat and link funny things.  not sure if shes got a bf but going ahead wit it.  proposes that we get a beer or do smth, take her up on it, suggest movie.  feel her uncertainty, day b4, tells me […]


many lady friends, some would say too many. becoming insight for guys friend.  deal with constant temptation.  flirting at times. perpetually wished luck with ladies.  yolo moments crossing my mind.  have parties with mostly female guest and token guys.  living every man’s dream.  bday just passed. receive 3 books about picking up and seducing women. […]


out with german friend, chillback night, c swedish friend chattin up girl, shes hot, go over, chat 4 a min, invite em 2 sit wit.  make convo, notice hotness again, have genuine convo. asks 4 my email, exchange contact info. meet up 4 coffee, dece 1st date. invite her to play volleyball. go 4 post […]

#58 *

post rejection by bro-b4-ho-free-sex-martyr, renew attempt at seduction thru dance, 7-foot viking god babe dances up. thinking extreme YOLO, club is closing, making out on dance floor.  Merge crews 4 after party at my place.  watch old movies and mornin cartoons til 10 a.m. head to the other room, makes a move, exhausted, crash, wake up […]

#57 *

crushing on boy 4 ages, lives in a diff city, go often.  have a couple of dates, hes down but holding back, prob got some other booty. keeps sending me romantic songs, finds excuses to touch me, often gives me the look. one last try, putting it on all the line. go out with mutual […]


alarmed/desperate, join fb. go to halloween party, meet girl, talk here and there, have all around fun, decide to forego usual tactics cuz i have fb now. dont ask for the number or the force the issue too much, figure fb’s got this. leaves. add ppl from the party. add her too.  msg  funny stuff, […]


yolo summer, been seeing friend lots, only in town for a few months, not sure what to think, friends say theres chem, have a bad habit of ignoring gut feeling when friend give their opinions, go out, friends applying the pressure, miss sober sex, no drunken move, night ends, go separate ways. next day, invite over for […]


friend of mine, we get along, feeling some chem for so long, go thru many close encounters, has an out of town bf, finally decide yolo, empty stomach, drink a lot, wind up in my hood, feeling good about the yolo, touchy feely, in my apt, alone, 5 am, doing shots of tequila, go for […]


Meet girl thru friends, extra fine, girl of my dreams material, both down.  Grapevine told me she has a bf, doesnt mention that she has a bf, find out she knows that her bf cheated on her, revenge is on the table, bf out of town for the wknd, at a party, outside, alone, starts […]


In club with friend, girl comes up to friend, chats him up a bit. Super hot, nice and in town for a few. friend eases off. talk, staying with me at the bar, convo is cooling, looking for a game-changing question, go thru a couple of options, settle on one, moment of glory approaching, ask […]

#51 *

Given up on dating men, meet girl, cute, smart, young, tattooed.  have fun together, cuddling, making out, drinking, dancing, movie nights, clubs. 4 months later, feeling happy. one day, realize shes still on the prowl.  just her back up plan and girl toy.  now the woman on the side.  says “no you don’t get a […]


Go out, meet up with friends from out of town, go to club, make our way to the dance floor, dance all night, spot some hot girl, keep dancing, eye fucking back and forth, club starts clearing out, keep dancing, dancing  eyes closed, open them, girl standing in front of me, says something, close eyes […]


In class, chat up girl, ask her out, get her number.  Go out for drinks, think shes drunk, drink a bit, dates going OK, invite her to my place “draw”, agrees, comes over, smoke a jay, states that she lives too far to go home, tell her she can stay. Eventually make it to my […]


Friend’s 25th, dinner party, bring salad and tequila, start eating, notice super hot girl, letting it simmer. Go for it, start talking, do shots, roll off to other girl. Reciprocating gazes, go back to chat, talking in another language, mastery of language is impressing her, ask about heart-shaped tattoo, represents her bf…


Meet girl at art party, talk for a bit, get her number and her email. Email back and forth, let her know that Im going to another art event, go solo, hang for a bit, she doesnt show until Im walking out the door, seems disappointed, commited to leaving, gotta follow thru. Don’t hear from […]


Accidentally meet #18, she with her friends, def not down.  Invites to her house party.  Go, friend thinks Im cute, get her phone number, go on date, s’all good.  Call, doesnt answer, leave msg, never hear from her again.  2 months later, find out, shes too shy too call back.  Plan 2nd date, cancel same […]


Own b-day, start out with some two king size 10% bottles of beer, down both quickly, not drunk enough, start doing shots, never stop.  In da club, crunk, dancing, no awareness, super fine friend of girl #13 comes up, starts chatting me up, manage to say something, continue dancing, lean against wall, fall asleep, girl […]


Last night in the country, girl lives above me, we’re friends, we have lots of sexual tension. Final send off, friends are over, we party, girl hasn’t shown up yet, night goes on, keep partying.  3am, people start leaving, saying final emotinal goodbyes, girl stumbles into the apartment, says: ”Im really drunk” I say: “OK” turn around, […]


Working in a café, only boy there, all colleagues are fine, only 2 staff per shift, flirt everyday, get propositioned to make out in the back a couple times, never take em cuz im professional, eventually get fired for multiple reasons. Girls decided to have party in my honour, exclaimed that they’ve never seen me […]

#42 *

bf – who dumped me 10 years ago – creeps me on the net, emails me out of the blue, says hes thinking of me and wants to say “Hi”.  Start talking again, eventually date again. 7 months later, starts to slowly push me away, avoids me. doesnt answer my texts, emails or calls but […]

#41 *

Meet guy while on tour through Montana.  SO perfect: artistic, smart, hot, funny and single.  Chat a couple of times thru emails and phone calls.  Hang out when I go back to Montana.  Hit it off, asks me to come visit him after I return home.  Pay $500 for a plane ticket, arms are wide open, […]

#40 *

Meet guy in Germany, he’s from Italy.   Hit it off, spend summer together, go out for a year. Go to Italy, he comes to America. Fly back to Italy, costs me $900, shows up 2 hours late to pick me up.  Driving to his mom’s house,  tells me he has a new gf, can’t see me […]


Met girl thru friend, talk to her all night, ask for her number.  Gives me one, then tells me to delete it, and to take this other one instead.  Think its fake, never call her. Two weeks later, friend asks me, “yo, why didnt you call #39?”.  Say that I thought it was fake. Figure […]

#38 *

With my girl for year, family refuses to accept me or meet me cuz Im 10 years older.  We were supposed to meet the other morning, she has a panic attack followed by a seizure.  Family doesnt let me see her, she recovers, calls me and ends it. Says she doesnt want to be with […]


Meet girl at party, talk all night, flirt intensively, find out she has BF, feeling something special between us, ask her for her contact info. call her next week, no answer txt her, no response email her, no reply see her on the street, no stop and chat.

#36 *

Meet guy on a tropical vacation, really in love with him, he’s dating my friend so can’t have him. Me, him and his gf all go home (shes goes to germany, he goes to the US and me to Canada). Emails me all the time, calls me, always talks about missing my friend, never stops […]


At party, two girls walk in, pick a corner and stand there.  Both super fine, boys all around them, never left alone.  Exchanging glances for a couples of hours, boys still around them.  Party dying down, see one sitting down alone, go in, wish her a happy new year, start talking. Calm, collected and saying […]


Been flirting with girl for a while now, its obvious, colleagues at work know, in staff room with a few of them and her, they see what’s going on, they all leave, one by one.  I’m setting up for the moment of truth, black out nervous, work up the courage, ask her out. she says: […]

#33 *

Get to know girl in lecture, talk a lot, thinks she likes me. Talk about pets, ask her if she has a dog, she responds that shes a cat person.  Two weeks later, give her a poem, The Cat, by Baudelaire.  Reads it for a sec, tells me she likes it, but has “no access to […]

#32 *

Meet girl in class, hit on her, find out she has a bf, stop going. last day of class, i decide to go. During the break, she tells me she broke up with her bf, i tell her we should skip the second half and go drinking. after a little convincing, we leave, play pool […]


Know a girl from class, she asks me out 3 times, 4th time I say yes.  We go for drinks, I fall asleep.  I call her 2 weeks later, we go for drinks again.  Invite her to my place, make out, she asks me to cuddle with her, I tell her that its bad for my […]


Met girl thru a friend, we’re down, hang out with friends a few times.  We go out, shes give me the look.  I don’t respond, 5 mins later, I run out of the bar, catch up with her one block away from her place, she jumps me, we make out. I stop kissing and say: […]


Meet girl thru friends, talk sporadically throughout night, find out she lives next to me.  We flirt a lot, catch her constantly looking at me, night ends, we all walk home, friends leave, just me and her now, get to her door, tell her that she should come over for a beer, she agrees.  crack […]


Met exchange student, shes belgian, we talk, I get her phone number.  Invite her out to go bobsledging, make my own bobsledge, she isnt impressed.  We get to the hill, it doesnt slide.  We go for lunch, she criticizes the meal yet she wanted fast food.  We leave, I remember I have to buy shampoo, we go […]


Spot kindergarten teacher that works at my school, really cute, we chat a couple of times, sense there’s something there, run into her one day, talk a bit, ask when shes off work, state that I finish at the same time, she blushes, I just respond: “OK, see you around.”  30 seconds later, realize my mistake, decide […]


Met girl at naked party.  Don’t have a piece of paper, remember her phone number, call her 3 days later.  We go for ice cream, she insists on paying, I tell her “its 2 fucking bucks”, I pay.  We go to park, she buys me a beer, talk about dogs, she girls up every time a dog […]

#25 *

House mate takes me to a friends party, get there, chill, some guy drinks my drink, declare that he’s motherfucker then take a bottle of wine, demand a cork screw from him and chug it. host shows up, pushes me into talking with this girl, really drunk, cant properly talk, say goodbye, put on my […]

#24 *

Out with some uptight girl, the topic of drugs comes up, tells me that she just discovered MDMA and loves it, I respond: “ecstasy and clubbing kinda gal eh?”, she says: “NO! MDMA is different. it’s much more natural”, Im like “uhh, its a synthetic CHEMICAL compound”. She frowns, disagrees and restates her belief, I say “you’re an idiot”. […]


Met girl in class, flirt and talk for a while, eventually go for lunch, food is disgusting, talk about throwing up, she thinks its funny, tells me stories about her throwing up. See her in class, keep talking, going to show, invite her to come too since shes going, we dont meet at the venue. […]

#22 *

At a comedy show with gorgeous woman friend, about 200 guests are there. We sit near the bar. I see a cute girl in the other corner of the room. We make eye contact, she comes up to the bar to get a drink, starts talking to me. We chat a little and we listen […]


Met girl in class, become obsessed with her, go on 1st date, we have good time, she gives me an opening to invite her to my place, dont take it.  Go on 2nd date, reggae night, she falls asleep.  We leave.  Go on 3rd date, at bar, she says we should have gone to her place for […]


Go to bar with friends, get really drunk, dance with girl, go back to her place, start making out with her, she says “Am I just a piece of meat to you”.  I say “Am I just a piece of meat to you?”. We keep making out, she says “lets cuddle”. I say “thats awkward”. […]


See girl from class at club, run into her in the co-ed bathroom after she comes out of stall doing blow, say whats up, she says same.  She disappears, see her in class, ask her out, then make joke about her doing blow, she never shows up…


Actually still girl #15, we go on dates every 3 months, eventually she tells me to sleep over at her place, I do, never make a move, cuz I think were friends, never see her again…

#17 *

Im 28 years old. Never had any friends, guys or girls. After 1 million craigslist posts go unanswered, I finally get a reply to one. We say hi, after a couple messages she suggests we meet up. We set a date but she doesnt answer her phone so it doesnt happen. A couple days later […]


Met #13 friend that is in town for a few, super fine, its her bday, we party late.  She wants to see the sunrise in a park, none of her friends wanna stay up.  I stay up, go to park with her, we watch the sunrise, make out.  She gives me her phone number, invites […]


#13 sets me up with her friend. we become friends, go on date, we just insult each other the whole time, walk her home.  she tells me she seeing some other guy…

#14 *

Get to Helsinki. Meet long lost friends. go out to bar, meet many girls but no hope. Go to the club.  Spot girl. Shes cute, out alone, we dance. I try to talk but musics too loud. I repeat myself too many times.  She interrupts me and says “I’m wearing earplugs, let’s dance now and talk later”. […]


Met girl in class, talk to her, exchange emails.  Invite her out to rock night on Tuesday, I never go, see her next class, she asks me why I didnt go, I say that I didnt think it would be fun.  We keep chatting after class is done, we hang out sometimes, I invite her […]

#12 *

My BFF leaves on a jet plane (to Greece from Canada), says good bye and breaks up with his girl. She then tells me to never mention his name again and that nobody cares if she lives or dies… so   i   take a flight to Canada, just to get to hear that she […]

#11 *

I’m straight, I meet a girl (lesbian) fall in love with her. She tells me two years later she is more attracted to guys and is not gay. WTF!


Girl in my class, eye fucking the shit out of each other every class.  Talk to her, see her again next class, ask her out, she asks me if im gay…


See girl in bar, eye fuck each other for 2 hours, go up to her, ask her to dance, she says no.


Met a girl at school, talk to her, dont see her for 3 months.  Run into her in the hallway, remember her name, get her number.  Go out on 1st date, wear nice shirt, buy her dinner, go for a walk.  Give her a hug goodbye.  Go on 2nd date, stoned, with “holed” T-shirt and […]


Met a girl thru a friend.  Super fine, she has ex-trouble but wtv.  We go out, have tea, wind up back at her place, I decide to leave 15 mins later.  Go on another date, buy her dinner, girl walks me home, gives me hug goodbye. Never see her again…


I go out, see the same girl from #5.  Talk to her, she introduces me to her flatmate. Her flatmate is super drunk, goes on a 10 min rant of insults directed solely at me.  I tell her flatmate to fuck off, girl tries to make the peace.  I roll off.  Come back later, girl […]


Invite a girl to a art opening at my work.  She comes, tells me she needs to get wasted, I give her free beer.  We leave with a group of people, go to a bar, drink again.  We go to a club, I talk to her, ask her to dance.  She tells me that I’m […]


Met girl playing tennis, after playing two matches, we lose touch.  I get an email 2 months later saying lets get drinks.  I take a month to reply.  We go for drinks then we go to her place. I try to kiss her, she tells me: “I don’t think its gonna work, Im only here […]


Met girl in the studio, we talk, shes gives me all her contact info.  I never call her. Run into her on a flight to Dublin, take her number again.  We go on a date, I talk about kids, she never returns any of my calls…


Girl in my class, super nice, super hot. I ask for her number, she asks for my fb…


Took a girl out that I knew for 2 months.  Went for drinks, shes smokes, so I started smoking to impress her. At 4am, she tells me shes a lesbian…