friend of mine, we get along, feeling some chem for so long, go thru many close encounters, has an out of town bf, finally decide yolo, empty stomach, drink a lot, wind up in my hood, feeling good about the yolo, touchy feely,

in my apt, alone, 5 am, doing shots of tequila, go for it, shot down, go on tirade of why and how not, upset, confused, ask her to leave, fighting tears,

walks out the door,

cry myself to sleep.